Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Plan vs Prepare

Funny what a little sunshine can do!  What a beautiful day God has made today! THANK YOU!  I feel great. The sun is shining. How lovely. Amazing what God can work up in just a days time.

Work has been challenging this year. I think to myself "It is all God's plan" But then I wonder. I can't just be ok with what is happening. I need to do something about it. Right? Maybe by understanding that God has a hand in all of our plans, it allows me to free myself of the disappointment. If a meeting with a client doesn't go the way I want it to then I say it was Gods will. No need to lament or drown in the disappointment.Pick up and keep trying right? If not, I would really be completely down in the dumps all of the time.

In the back of my mind I am wondering what I am to be taught from this "drought" in my business.  In hindsight, I can see many results from what I have prayed for. They were so gradual..on God's time. God has delivered tenfold and in His own way.

The hardest part is listening. Am I doing what He wants me to. What is this time in my business career telling me? New career? That just doesn't feel right to me. I do enjoy what I do. I have flexibility as a mother to do what I need to do. I make a decent living. So asking me, I just don't think a new career is an option.

I think about Mary often these days. When Joseph discovered she was pregnant he was going to quietly divorce her to spare her shame. The shame of being pregnant and not married. Mary accepted this shame willingly in order to follow God's plans for her. Stay with me on this one....What if God really wants me to change jobs?or worse what if the company I represent says "See ya l8r!!"  Granted, my situation would have to be very dire for this to happen. But if that did happen, I too would feel shame , embarrassment, complete failure. Pride much? It is a HUGE worry for me now. Again, realistically, my job is secure now. But, just thinking about the possibility, eeek.

God's plan is His plan. I just need to be prepared to answer Him with a "yes" like Mary did. I need to rest in Him. Place my worries in His hands. Pray that I can discern His will for me versus my own. Easy peasy?

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Hodge podge

We found out last week that baby number 4 is a... BOY!  More importantly, the ultrasound showed that everything is normal. I was convinced that this next blessing was a girl. So a surprise to me! Our daughter was planning to have the baby crib in her room. When I told her  she would be having a little brother she was happy.....but she said her room is  "girls only" and baby brother needed to find another place to sleep. This coming from a 3 year old. Crazy! Her twin brother graciously welcomes his new brother into his room. So a crib moving we will go!

As I stare at my babies pictures on my desk, am just overwhelmed with how blessed I am in this moment. Chewing on my red twizzler helps too. I cant get enough of those! My stomach says enough. But my mind keeps on going...

Anyhoo. I plan to really get down and dirty this weekend getting the house in order. Only 5 months to go until baby boy. Since I already have 3 kids, that 5 months is really like only having 2 weeks.  Between sickness, school, and activities time flies so fast. I like to be prepared too. :)

I have been a Catholic  all of my life. However, I feel like I have been in a constant conversion process for the past 6 years. I learn so much from reading all of your blogs. Last year, Queen B talked about her Magificat magazine. I didn't even know what it was!!! So I checked it out. They sent me a free copy. I asked for it for Christmas. I am on my second month. I DO love it dearly. However, I am not too committed to the readings as I hoped I would be. I always seem to miss either the morning or evening readings. I pray that during my Lenten journey I will be better at using this awesome tool.

Speaking of Lent. I am again very excited. Excited because our oldest son, who is 5, is really asking great questions. I plan to take him to adoration and the stations of the cross. Mama JD's family is giving up donuts. I suggested this to my son. He is on board too. We are a donut loving family. I hope to also incorporate something that will foster good will amongst my kids. Stuff that they can do for each other. During advent, we had  Jesus in a manger. Anytime they did something nice for each other, they got to put straw in their manger. They still ask if they can do this 4 months after Christmas! I'd better get crackin' on that too.

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